THE HOLLA COURSE
when are people going to understand that YOUR SIZE DOES NOT DETERMINE YOUR HEALTH STATUS
Some peoples bodies are naturally thin, some are naturally bigger.
- elena chose damon
- and i died because of all possible reasons
- alaric was THE perfect bestfriend
- matt and rebekah are going on a fucking road trip
- I CREY??
- klaus let tyler come back
- and is planning on waiting for caroline until then
- and it was actually romantic?
- katherine is now a fucking human
- stefan is now drowning in a fucking river
- damon got the girl
- silas is now wearing a stefan suit
- bonnie brought jeremy back to life
- and now she’s fucking dead
- AND SO AM I
Sometimes I think about how different I’d be if I was different.
Like what if my hair was thicker? Or if I decided I’d actually try to look good every day? Or what if I woke up at 9 AM every morning again, just so I could have a full day’s worth? And sometimes, I’d watch the news and I’d be in tune with every thing that’s going on in the world. And maybe I’d actually go to the hairstylist to trim my hair instead of lazying around and trimming it every 5 months. Maybe I’d be more proactive and volunteer, get a job, meet new people and not stay at home almost every day wondering where the time went. And what if I actually did half the things I told myself I’d do every day?
And maybe I’d be different if I wasn’t so dependent on other people; whether it be a boyfriend or a friend. I wonder if I was so independent that I didn’t actually care if someone was by my side at all.
But then I think about how if I was all things that are different than who I really am, than I’m not really me, am I? I guess this post is a reassuring post, one that tells me that it’s okay that I wait for my boyfriend’s call, and it’s okay that I wake up at 3 PM frequently. Because everyone’s different. And what’s different about you or me doesn’t make us any better than the other. It just makes us- us.
It’s so amusing to me how when my best friends and I decided to live together for our first year of college, everyone said that we’d end up hating each other. But I don’t think I’d love my friends as much as I do right now if we hadn’t lived together this past year. I dunno man, my friends are just better than any other friends in the world clearly.
yo fuck anyone who doesn’t want you in their life and fuck anyone who treats you bad and fuck anyone who breaks your heart because they’re all fuckin losers and they’re definitely not worth your time because your time is precious and the only people who deserve it are people who treat you right and are nice and don’t lie to you and buy you ice cream.
48 years ago a girl said “oh fuck me” to her best friend while walking in the street, a guy who randomly passed by answered by “let me at least buy you dinner first”. I present to you my grandparents, in love since then and celebrating their 47 years of marriage today.
I feel so lame and boring and uninteresting.
Sigh. Good night.